Am I broken?
Lots of talk of this illness called Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) in my generation. Some of my friends mentioned to me that their parents had them tested because their grades were low. They were prescribed a drug called Ritalin, which many of these same kids ended up using as a recreational drug later.
“Definition: A chronic condition including attention difficulty, hyperactivity, and impulsiveness.”
Why do I bring this up? I have to work and study harder than what everyone else does. I can read a paragraph six times and still not tell you what I read. When I heard about this “sickness”, I looked up the definition. First and only thing I read was ‘attention difficulty’. I planted the seed in my head that I was probably broken. I started to set all my goals lower in my own head. Why embarrass myself?
In 1997, I was offered the opportunity to work at a company called Denico Air & Heat out of Melbourne, Florida. I found something I enjoyed. I found I learn much faster when I can physically perform the actions. I advanced at an awesome rate with the help of all of the team. One person in particular named Sol Goodwin* spent countless off the clock hours training me. It was an honor when I was promoted to a Service Technician in about 2 years.
Do I have ADHD or and issues that are similar? I do not know. I really do not care anymore. What I can tell you is through my experiences I have been able to teach myself to pay attention better. (My wife will disagree.) One book that helped me on my journey to understanding people and myself better is “How to win friends and influence people.” By Dale Carnegie, I would HIGHLY recommend this book to anyone that questions his or her own abilities.
The only things that have held me back in my life are my own thoughts and how others have judged me. Those days are not gone. I battle these thoughts silently when dealing with all aspects of life. Luckily, the opportunities given and the great people I have met along the way have opened my eyes to making the right choices.
*Sol Goodwin is currently the President of Quality Comfort Air Conditioning and Heating in Melbourne, Florida.